Everything changes color.
Before I wave good bye.
Friday, December 30, 2011


TGIF. The last Friday of the year 2011. So, yea. 2011 is about to end. As usual, I am thanking the Lord for still entrusting me the life He has given me. I’ve been back reading on my blog and I can see how I changed within this year. I have to say, 2011 was filled with all sorts of heartbreak for me; mostly in relationship with my friends, family and my special one last time.For me this year was pretty much disappointing, but life goes on so I have to keep going on too.Like what I learned from The Series of Unfortunate Events movie. 
I was constantly hit with bad news over and over again. I’m sick and tired of trying to act like everything is okay when it really isn’t.  I learn so much about the world and about me that sometimes it gets to be too much. But the worst part about it is I still have so much to learn. In 2011 I’ve learned about my real friends. If someone asked me who my real friends were I won’t regret that I can only name two or three people. Those are just the people who I know will always be true to me no matter what. I know that I’m bipolar. That sometimes I can suffer serious cases of depressions. But that’s just me. I can’t change it and I don’t want too. I want to transition into 2012 with a new attitude. I want to know to  doubt myself. If i put my mind to it there is nothing I can’t do.

Lots of things happen this year:
- I figured out the things that really should matter in my life.
- I felt alone & misunderstood.
- I felt the pain and stress.
- I gave up.
- I accomplished more than what people would have ever expected.
- I walked out of the lives I never needed to be in.
- I blamed myself for things I didn’t do.
- I learned a lot from the things I saw people try to do.
- I did things I never thought i’d do.
-Breakup text
-I’ve woken up crying.
- suffer a lot and having a really hard time this year with my family :'(

Just a day left before another year finally starts anew. Of course, the beginning of another year also brings with it ideas of new beginnings, second chances and changes for the better. As for me, I’m only hoping for better days ahead. I do hope what’s in store for me in 2012 would make me grow as a person and mold me into becoming that person that The Lord wants me to be.

For the pain and the lies, and all the time I have to cry, goodbye and thanks for the memories. :') 

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