I know this is part of our life as a student. You know, being compare with other clever students. I'm sorry that I'm not the girl in your class that you expected to get higher marks. 

    It was really an embarrassing day today. Going out of the lab with red face, feeling so ashamed with myself. The hatred I have to everyone. Thank God I have my best friend, Edi with me who cheered me up. But yeah, that laugh wasn't last. As I arrived home, I cried my heart out when my mum hugged me. Uh. 

    Sometimes, I just feel why are you put your high hope on me when I myself know I can't reach the target you set on me. I'm such a disappointment to everyone. And yea, you the one who laugh on me. You know what, just carry on yo. Keep laughing on me, bitch. 

   Don’t they realize that being compared to someone is, maybe, one of the most irritating thing in this world? It’s like a iniquitous process, insult for the first one and a compliment for the other one. Yes. Maybe you can see some comparisons between two people BUT that doesn’t always imply that they should be compared. We need to remember that we are all born uniquely and differently from others, which makes comparing less reasonable. But yeah, I know that at some instances, being compared is really unavoidable, but still, it sucks. I'm sorry if I speak something wrong here. I'm just speaking my mind out. 

Once again, I'm sorry for being such a disappointment to everyone. I can't promise to be better, but I'll try my best to work on it.