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Welcome 2013
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
 Well, this year I just want to keep moving forward. I know I won’t figure out everything in a year, or make any major improvements in my life, or miraculously find myself knowing what I want and getting. This year things will most probably be the same. But you know what? That’s okay. The hole in my chest won’t close overnight- and I don’t want it to. I want to find out what creates this emptiness and if I can, I want to start fixing myself. I want to keep learning, to find out more about the world and, most importantly, more about myself. The more I learn, the more lost I feel, and I want to be okay with this. I’m young and I have a restless mind and this is a good thing. I might curse my luck for it sometimes, but I’d rather overthink and despair over nothing than have no questions at all. I want to learn what ‘content’ means. I want to be fine, just fine, because there’s so much serenity in this feeling and I want to be calm and quiet for a while. I need to learn how to be grateful for the progress I’ve made and stop despairing over how much I have in front of me until I finally become who I’m supposed to be. In 2013, I want to keep growing. I want to learn how to be strong, I want to be less afraid. There will be ups and downs, there will be successful and disappointing moments; there will be uncertainty. And it will be alright. This time next year I will be a better person- I’ll know a bit more. I can see now that it doesn’t really matter where 2014 will find me, as long as it’s a step forward from where I am today- even a small one. So there. This is it, all I wish for, for myself and for you. No world peace, no health, no happiness, because, to be frank, I can’t control any of these things. I can only keep going and learning from whatever life throws at me. And so should you. Happy New Year, readers. x |