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Hiding my heart
Saturday, November 26, 2011
 I don't think this crush will ever go away. Ughhhh, this dude. He totally has my heart. Like seriously, he is so amazing and ugh, I like him so much. I sound like a little kid when I say I like him, but hey, it’s true. He just got his ears pierced and he looks super cute.I mean i smile whenever we’re texting, which is always. He is so sweet, so adorable, so caring, SO AMAZING. . I don’t know what to do. It’s either hurt or be hurt. :'(
But.....
There's a thing I'm confuse about this stuff. Is he the one? Is he the guy for me? I’m a really good at lying to myself for a short time, then everything hits me. How much I’ve actually fallen for him despite trying to tell myself not to let him get too close to my heart. Last Friday night, I was alone, hearing Adele's song. and I wonder, have he ever think of me, like I did EVERYDAY? No. Have he ever MISS me? No. If he does, he would tell me. nah. :'( I cried like a small girl misses her pillow. Wishing him to text me like we always does last time. Truth or Dare game once last time. Sharing stories of our life together. Spending time texting together. I feel i'm sucha' fool. Drowning myself with my own silly taught. I let my heart take over myself more than my brains. Thinking of someone that not gonna like us back like how i did, is effortless. I'm such a bad luck girl.
In both cases,I’ll be crushed. Unless I’ll tell him I like him,and he’ll say he likes me back and we’ll get together and have a happy ending.lol,but that won’t happen…even if it will,he’ll probably break up with me after 1 month. What ever happens,I’ll be crushed in the end. I know.I just know.
This song kills me. Every single word she sings is everything I wish I could say.
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