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Be nice, December.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Back to December, in this moment, in 2011. Remembered the time where last December brings a lot of memories behind :') And was the best! Flashing back the time where we had bible camp at Penang,having some kind of 'crush' at Penang, LOL-ing with buddies, and a lot! This year, we're not going to camp again. I mean, me and my bro. Kinda heartbreaking though. *sigh.
Why are my holidays should be fucking boring? :( duh. I'M HOPING FOR MIRACLES, LORD! :)
.....but there's something I should say about December
Dear December,Are you proud of yourself? I hope you’re not because I am not happy at all! Usually, you make me feel inspired and motivated to make changes leading into the new year, but not this year. Sure, the majority of these changes don’t actually happen but it is nice to be optimistic and you know what? I have not felt optimistic in a few months so it would be good to be my old optimistic, inspired self again! I’m not studying, yet the stress levels are so incredibly high. I don’t know why! Should have start studying and revise my Form 4 lessons all over back, but I haven't start. Not even one. My homework are all waiting for me to do them. I'm not proud saying all this, I feel disappointed. Probably not going for tuition next year.Maybe just one. For Add Maths. Seeing all my classmates are going for tuition next year, just making me down. Not down because of them, but I feel upset. Lord, I need your guidance throughout my senior year next year. Hopefully God open my heart to start revise next week. God's will. Something fix this! |